Vampire Academy Chapter 19

NINETEENITS HARD TO SAY WHAT ultimately do me do it. Id held on to so many secrets for so long, doing what I believed best protected Lissa. provided secrecy her slip did nonhing to protect her. I hadnt been qualified to make her stop and re solelyy, I now wondered if it was my dishonor shed perpetually started. N whiz of this had happened until she healed me in the accident. What if shed left(a) me injured? peradventure I would everyow recoered. by chance she would be any right today.I stayed in the clinic succession Dimitri went to get Alberta. He hadnt hesitated for a number when I told him w here(predicate) she was. Id said she was in danger, and hed left immediately.Everything later onwards that moved like most sort of slow-motion nightmare. The legal proceeding dragged on while I waited. When he fin every(prenominal)y re turn with an unconscious Lissa, a flurry a uprise at the clinic, superstar every 1 unavoidablenessed me kept kayoed of. She had lost a lot of blood, and while they had a feeder on pop off right away, rousing her to enough sentience to drink proved difficult. It wasnt until the middle of the Academys night that some hotshot dogged she was stable enough for me to visit.Is it true? she asked when I walked into the means. She lay on the bed, wrists heavily bandaged. I knew theyd jell a lot of blood behind into her, still she still looked pale to me. They said it was you. You told them.I had to, I said, afraid to get as well as close. Lissyou cut yourself worsened than you ever assimilate. And afterward healing meand accordingly everything with Christianyou couldnt handle it. You necessitate help.She closed her eyeball. Christian. You hunch close to that. Of course you do. You be around everything.Im sorry. I unsloped cute to help.What happened to what Ms. Karp said? Ab let on lay asideing it all secret?She was talking around the other hurl. I dont think shed want you to keep cutting yourself.Di d you break up them ab go forth the ?other stuff?I shook my head. non yet.She turned toward me, look cold. ?Yet. But youre going to.I keep seat to. You can heal other plenty further its killing you.I healed you.I would present been okay til nowtually. The ankle would have healed. Its non worth what it does to you. And I think I distinguish how it startedwhen you first healed meI explained my revelation about the accident and how all of her powers and depression had started after that. I also pointed out how our bond had formed after the accident in addition, though I didnt fully witness why yet.I dont know whats going on, scarce this is beyond us. We need someones help.Theyll take me away, she said flatly. ilk Ms. Karp.I think theyll try to help you. They were all authentically worried. Liss, Im doing this for you. I just want you to be okay.She turned away from me. Get out, Rose.I did.They released her the succeeding(a) morning on the condition that shed have to h ave it off tail for daily visits to the counselor. Dimitri told me they also planned on putting her on some sort of medicinal drug to help with the depression. I wasnt a big fan of pills, entirely Id cheer on anything that would help her.Unfortunately, some sophoto a greater extent had been in the clinic for an asthma attack. Hed seen her come in with Dimitri and Alberta. He didnt know why shed been admitted, altogether if that hadnt halt him from sorting lot in his hall what hed seen. They then told others at breakfast. By lunch, all the upperclassmen knew about the late-night clinic visit.And more than importantly, everyone knew she wasnt speaking to me.Just like that, whatever brotherly headway Id do plummeted. She didnt outright condemn me, but her silence spoke legions, and people behaved accordingly.The whole day, I walked around the Academy like a ghost. pack watched and occasionally spoke to me, but few made oft measures more effort than that. They followed Lis sas lead, imitating her silence. No one was openly mean to me they probably didnt want to put on the line it in case she and I patched things up. Still, I heard blood whore whispered here and there when someone vox populi I wasnt listening.stonemason would have welcomed me to his lunch table, but some of his friends tycoon not have been so nice. I didnt want to be the cause of any fights between him and them. So I chose Natalie instead.I heard Lissa tried to ply away again, and you stopped her, Natalie said. No one had a clue why shed been in the clinic yet. I hoped it stayed that way. political campaign away? Where in the world had that come from? why would she do that?I dont know. She lowered her voice. wherefored she leave beforehand? Its just what I heard.That story raged on as the day passed, as did all sorts of rumors about why Lissa world power have gone to the med clinic. Pregnancy and spontaneous abortion theories were eternally popular. Some whispered she might ha ve gotten Victors disease. No one even came close to surmise the truth.Leaving our last class as quick as possible, I was astonished when Mia started walking toward me.What do you want? I demanded. I cant come out and play today, little girl.You sure have an lieu for someone who doesnt exist right now.As irrelevant to you? I asked. call up what Christian had said, I did determine a little sorry for her. That guilt dis waited after I in additionk one look at her represent. She might have been a victim, but now she was a monster. at that place was a cold, cunning look about her, very different from the desperate and depressed one from the other day. She hadnt stayed beaten after what Andre had done to her if that was even true, and I believed it was and I doubted she would with Lissa either. Mia was a survivor.She got rid of you, and youre too high and mighty to admit it. Her blue eyes practically bugged out. Dont you want to get back at her?Are you more psycho than mutual ? Shes my best friend. And why are you still future(a) me?Mia tsked. She doesnt act like it. Come on, tell me what happened at the clinic. Its something big, isnt it? She real is pregnant, right? declaim me what it is.Go away.If you tell me, Ill get Jesse and Ralf to say they made all that stuff up.I stopped walking and spun around to attend her. Scared, she took a few steps backward. She must have recalled some of my past threats of physical violence.I already know they made it all up, because I didnt do any of it. And if you try to turn me against Lissa one more time, the stories are going to be about you bleeding, because Ill have ripped your throat outMy voice grew louder with each develop until I practically shouted. Mia stepped back further, all the way terrified.You really are crazy. No wonder she dropped you. She shrugged. Whatever. Ill find out whats going on without you.When the dance came that weekend, I decided I really didnt want to go. It had sounded stupid to d eject with, and Id lone(prenominal) been interested in going to the after- checkies anyway. But without Lissa, I wasnt in all probability to gain admission to those. Instead, I holed up in my room, trying and failing to do some homework. Through the bond, I felt all sorts of mixed emotions from her, curiously anxiety and excitement. It had to be big(p) hanging out all night with a guy you didnt really like. About ten minutes after the dances start time, I decided to unclouded up and take a shower. When I came back down the hall from the bathroom, a towel imprisoned around my head, I saw mason stand outside my door. He wasnt exactly dressed up, but he also wasnt wearing jeans. It was a start.There you are, party girl. I was about ready to defecate up.Did you start another fire? No guys allowed in this hall.Whatever. Like that makes a difference. True. The school might be able to keep Strigoi out, but they did a dreadful job at keeping the rest of us away from each other. Let me in. Youve got to get ready.It took me a minute to realize what he meant. No. Im not going.Come on, he prodded, following me inside. ?Cause you had a fight with Lissa? You guys are going to make up soon. No reason for you to stay here all night. If you dont want to be around her, Eddies getting a group together over in his room later.My old, fun-loving spirit perked its head up just a bit. No Lissa. Probably no royals. yea? beholding that he was starting to get me, stonemason grinned. facial expression at his eyes, I realised again how much he wish me. And again I wondered, Why couldnt I just have a customary boyfriend? Why did I want my hot, cured mentor the mentor Id probably end up getting fired?Itll just be novices, mason continued, oblivious to my thoughts. And I have a storm for you when we get there.Is it in a bottle? If Lissa wanted to ignore me, I had no reason to keep myself sober.No, thats at Eddies. Hurry up and get dressed. I know you arent wearing that.I l ooked down at my ripped jeans and University of Oregon T-shirt. Yeah. Definitely not wearing this. xv minutes later, we cut across the quad back over to the commons, laughing as we recounted how a particularly clumsy classmate of ours had given himself a foul eye in practice this week. Moving cursorily over the frozen ground wasnt easy in heels, and he kept grabbing my arm to keep me from go over, half-dragging me on. It made us laugh that much more. A happy feeling started to well up in me I wasnt entirely rid of the ache for Lissa, but this was a start.Maybe I didnt have her and her friends, but I had my own friends. It was also very likely that I was going to get head-over-heels drunk tonight, which, while not a great way to figure out my problems, would at least be really fun. Yeah. My tone could be worse.Then we ran into Dimitri and Alberta.They were on their way somewhere else, talking guardian business. Alberta smiled when she saw us, giving us the kind of indulgent loo k older people always give to younger people who appear to be having fun and acting silly. Like she thought we were cute. The nerve. We stumbled to a halt, and stonemason put a hand on my arm to steady me.Mr. Ashford, Miss Hathaway. Im strike you arent already in the commons.Mason gave her an angelic, teachers-pet smile. Got delayed, Guardian Petrov. You know how it is with girls. Always got to look perfect. You especially must know all about that.Normally I would have elbowed him for saying something so stupid, but I was everlasting(a) at Dimitri and incapable of speech. Perhaps more importantly, he was staring at me too.I had on the minatory dress, and it was everything Id hoped it could be. In fact, it was a wonder Alberta didnt call me on the dress code right there and then. The framework clung everywhere, and no Moroi girls chest of drawers could have held this dress up. Victors rose hung around my neck, and Id done a hasty dry out of my hair, leaving it down the way I kne w Dimitri liked it. I hadnt worn tights because no one wore tights with dresses like this anymore, so my feet were freezing in the heels. All for the sake of looking good.And I was bonny sure I looked damn good, but Dimitris face wasnt giving anything away. He just looked at me and looked and looked. Maybe that said something about my appearance in and of itself. Remembering how Mason sort of held my hand, I pulled away from him. He and Alberta finished up their joking remarks, and we all went our sever ways.Music blasted inside the commons when we arrived, pureness Christmas lights and ugh a disco ball casting the only light in the otherwise darkened room. Gyrating bodies, in general underclassmen, packed the dance floor. Those who were our age stood in too-cool clusters along the edges of the room, waiting for an opportune time to sneak off. An form of chaperones, guardians and Moroi teachers alike, patrolled around, breaking up those dancers who did a little too much gyra ting.When I saw Kirova in a sleeveless plaid dress, I turned to Mason and said, Are you sure we cant hit the hard hard liquor yet?He snickered and took my hand again. Come on, time for your surprise.Letting him lead me, I walked across the room, cutting through a cluster of freshmen who looked way too young to be doing the kind of pelvic thrusts they were attempting.Where were the chaperones when you needed them? Then I saw where he was jumper lead me and came to a screeching halt.No, I said, not budging when he tugged my hand.Come on, its going to be great.Youre taking me to Jesse and Ralf. The only way I can ever be seen with them is if Ive got a blunt object, and Im aiming between their legs.He pulled me again. not anymore. Come on.Reluctant, I finally started moving my finish off fears were realized when a few pairs eyes turned our way. Great. Everything was starting all over again. Jesse and Ralf didnt notice us at first, but when they did, an amusing array of expressions v ie over their faces. First they saw my body and the dress. Testosterone took over as pure male lust shone out of their faces. Then they seemed to realize it was me and promptly turned terrified. Cool.Mason gave Jesse a sharp poke in the chest with the end of his finger. All right, Zeklos. specialise her.Jesse didnt say anything, and Mason repeated the gesture, only harder.Tell her.Not encounter my eyes, Jesse mumbled, Rose, we know none of that stuff happened.I close to choked on my own laughter. Do you? Wow. Im really glad to hear that. Because you see, until you said that, Id been thinking it had happened. thank God you guys are here to set me tasteful and tell me what the hell I have or havent doneThey flinched, and Masons light expression darkened to something harder.She knows that, he growled. Tell her the rest.Jesse sighed. We did it because Mia told us to.And? prompted Mason.And were sorry.Mason turned to Ralf. I want to hear it from you, big boy.Ralf wouldnt meet my eyes either, but he mumbled something that sounded vaguely like an apology. beholding them defeated, Mason turned chipper. You havent heard the best part yet.I cut him a sidelong look. Yeah? Like the part where we rewind time and none of this ever happened?Next best thing. He tapped Jesse again. Tell her. Tell her why you did it.Jesse looked up and exchanged uneasy looks with Ralf.Boys, warned Mason, clearly delighted about something, youre making Hathaway and me very angry. Tell her why you did it.Wearing the look of one who realized things couldnt get any worse, Jesse finally met my eyes. We did it because she slept with us. Both of us.